i don’t know what it is. but lately i have this feelings that i can't understand. this feeling that there is so much lacking and so much longing that i don't even know what it is. that feeling between laughing and crying, the feeling of wanting to be with someone but you want to be alone also, the feeling of being there but not really, the feeling of longing for the past but you’re excited with the future at the same time. this feeling that you can't even put into words, these feelings that you can't even explain.
And no, this is not depression, actually i can say that i'm okay now, and i'm not sad anymore but i'm not happy either. i'm not even heartbroken anymore, those broken pieces and pain is now almost healed but at the same time it feels like there is a fresh cut of blade in your heart. this is not loneliness, this is not anxiety, this is not confusion, this is not nostalgia, this is not insanity either. it is more like the combination of everything that you don't understand. i call it emptiness, and i don't like it..
just my two cents...xoxo
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